Why are guys such shallow creatures? Is there a point in your lives where you look beyond looks and consider the girl's heart instead?

I get it if you want a hot girlfriend if you are handsome, but most guys who wants those girls aren't even much to look at! Please look in the mirror before going around saying 'I want a hot girlfriend'. But even handsome guys who has this mentality turns me off. It just means they don't have a good heart. All in all I think it's just wrong. It's wrong to approach a girl only when she is pretty. And if the girl grows old and starts to have wrinkles...will you still love her? Are you going to leave her for someone younger?

And even if you don't consider the future...when you say things like that, did you even stop to think about average girls? Where does that put girls like me? Blended in the background, not to be seen at all?

yes. this is exactly what i want you to hear.

audio is a little bad...but hey, at least the video is watchable. this is the best song ever. brittana for the win!

i took my love and i took it down
i climbed a mountain and i turned around
and i saw my reflection in the snow-covered hills
well, the landslide brought me down

oh, mirror in the sky, what is love
can the child within my heart rise above
can i sail through the changing ocean tides
can i handle the seasons of my life

uh uh... uh uh, uh uh....

well, i've been afraid of changin'
cause i've built my life around you
but time makes you bolder
children get older
and i'm getting older too
well

well, i've been afraid of changin'
cause i've built my life around you
but time makes you bolder
children get older
and i'm getting older too

well, i'm getting older too

so.. take this love and take it down
yeah, and if you climb a mountain and you turn around
and if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
well, the landslide brought it down

and if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
well maybe...
well maybe...
well maybe...
the landslide'll bring you down

they say you can always judge how much you love someone by how much they can hurt you.

your 'whatever' and your i-don't-care-what-you-do tone hurt me more than anyone else's 'boring', 'stupid' and 'ugly'.

i don't like being forgotten. i went through some of my old inbox messages on facebook and i noticed a pattern in the conversations i had with my high school friends. that none of them replied after my messages. i know i am being paranoid here but...if you're going to ignore me after i say something then please, don't bother including me in anything. it hurts to know that everyone is telling everyone else that they miss each other and the old times and i am never part of it. as far as i am concerned, i no longer want to have anything to do with high school, be it friends, events or memories. i can do with a little less pain and hurt in my life.

on the other hand, i wonder if you know that you're all that is on my mind right now? the more i think the more confused i get. i wonder what would happen if i really confronted you with my feelings. a few people are pushing me to tell you so i can get closure and suffer less. but i will suffer more if i heard the word 'no' from you. so i will keep it this way; live with the constant pain of wondering about 'what-if's.

this is all i have to say at the point. my confusion is clouding everything.

Heather Morris (who plays Brittany) and Naya Rivera (who plays Santana) has always been my favourite girls in Glee. Until now, I have always been a Brittana/HeMo & Naya shipper. I got quite frustrated at the end of season 2 when Brittany and Santana cleared their feelings up and became best friends again. But then this happened.

Blaine: Hi Santana what’s going on?

Santana: Hi i just…[looks at Brittany] I heard that you wanted to kiss someone.. [points at Blaine] and you’re taken.

Santana: I’ll kiss you Britt.

Brittany: Okay i’ll close my eyes.

Blaine: Just do it.

Santana: Ready? One, two, three.

Brittany: I love her, bye.

Finally, just when I thought I wouldn't see it. A Brittana kiss. I can see Heather Morris being all nervous, jumpy and clenching her hands to grab the bottom of her shorts before the kiss. But it was so cute. Heather's little jump and Naya's smile at the end of it says it all. Oh oh, their hug too. =)

What would Heather's boyfriend say? Doesn't matter. I don't think that kiss meant anything to them. They are probably going to forget about it. It was just a crazy spontaneous act that they will be laughing at years from now. I can imagine the conversation.

Heather: Hey remember the time when you came on stage, surprised me and we made a spontaneous act and ended up sharing a quick kiss?

Naya: Yeah that was crazy. But fun. Enjoyed it while it lasted.

Even though it may not mean a lot to them, it meant a lot for the Brittana fandom who has been dying to see the two characters together. And I wouldn't be suprised to see straight girls turning lesbian after being a fan of these two and seeing this video. LOL. I think I have half a mind to turn into one now. But no, I think I'll still keep guys in my view. =p

I couldn't be happier, I cannot stop smiling and nothing is going to ruin my day. =D

3rd of July, I will never forget the day the Brittana fandom died of happiness. Oh yeah and Klaine too. =)

i havent thought about you in that sense for a long time. but i dont know why recently you drifted into my mind again.

occasionally i feel the need to call you in the middle of the night and tell you everything, all those moments i remember about you...about us.

there are times when i feel the urge to hold your hand when you walk too close to me.

those tiny and frequent moments i wished i could have a hug or someone to hold your face appears in my head.

the little gentlemanly things you do sticks to my mind and i find myself telling my friends about these little things you do. it makes them go 'aw'. and i like it when they think of you that way.

the problem is, i dont miss you when i dont see you. you dont give me butterflies in my stomach. you dont make me long for you day and night. my heart doesnt skip a beat or beats faster when i see you. when i come face to face with you, it seems to the world that we are really just friends.

i am terribly confused.

i am so addicted to this song. quinn looks stunning as usual. =)

glee rocks.

this is frustrating. i had my facebook and msn hacked. the bloody idiot went and changed my password and security question. i had to set up two new emails just to get my facebook back. grrrr. and on top of that, now that i have a new hotmail address, a lot of people whom i have added appear online on my old account but offline on my new account. they claimed to never have received my invitation for the MSN add.

its either ebuddy's fault or the connections fault. sighz.

my favourite on-screen couple, heather morris and naya rivera. besties in real life too. they have so much chemistry. i am so addicted to glee. =p

i must find a friendship like theirs.

loneliness. such a strong feeling i've been experiencing for most of my life. i'm not the kind of person who is always out and about, socializing with new people and attending parties. however, i have those rare moments where i just want to be out of the house and hang out with friends. today was one of those moment hit me and i found myself back home facing these four walls again. it hit me that i am actually someone who has very few friends and a very dead social life.

that's when the loneliness started to sink in and it got my kind of depressed. wondering why i turned out this way. sighz. i am so very alone at the moment.

To the senior who managed to finally get rid of uni,

Now I know you don't like lengthy or wordy posts, so I'll make it as brief as possible and this is what I want to say:

1. Thanks. For all the help you've given me. No matter how insignificant you thought they were, they made a difference to me and that's all that counts.

2. Don't emo. You've had enough emoness throughout uni to last you a lifetime. Don't go around and emo about your job after this. In fact, don't emo over anything at all. =p

3. As awkward as it may sound, I'm going to miss you. I know you're probably going to MSN me and say "Don't miss me =p" but that's how I am. I will always miss friends who are going away, especially if they mattered to me. So yeah. I am going to miss seeing you around here (yeah i know you hate this place, don't remind me =/ ).

4.

This is created for you. It's a little simple and terrible but oh wellz. All I want you to read is the fine print at the bottom. =p

=D

i have just taken a depression test and my results are pretty...hm..obvious. so, am i really that crazy now?

Myth #1 – Introverts don’t like to talk.

This is not true. Introverts just don’t talk unless they have something to say. They hate small talk. Get an introvert talking about something they are interested in, and they won’t shut up for days.

Myth #2 – Introverts are shy.

Shyness has nothing to do with being an Introvert. Introverts are not necessarily afraid of people. What they need is a reason to interact. They don’t interact for the sake of interacting. If you want to talk to an Introvert, just start talking. Don’t worry about being polite.

Myth #3 – Introverts are rude.

Introverts often don’t see a reason for beating around the bush with social pleasantries. They want everyone to just be real and honest. Unfortunately, this is not acceptable in most settings, so Introverts can feel a lot of pressure to fit in, which they find exhausting.

Myth #4 – Introverts don’t like people.

On the contrary, Introverts intensely value the few friends they have. They can count their close friends on one hand. If you are lucky enough for an introvert to consider you a friend, you probably have a loyal ally for life. Once you have earned their respect as being a person of substance, you’re in.

Myth #5 – Introverts don’t like to go out in public.

Nonsense. Introverts just don’t like to go out in public FOR AS LONG. They also like to avoid the complications that are involved in public activities. They take in data and experiences very quickly, and as a result, don’t need to be there for long to “get it.” They’re ready to go home, recharge, and process it all. In fact, recharging is absolutely crucial for Introverts.

Myth #6 – Introverts always want to be alone.

Introverts are perfectly comfortable with their own thoughts. They think a lot. They daydream. They like to have problems to work on, puzzles to solve. But they can also get incredibly lonely if they don’t have anyone to share their discoveries with. They crave an authentic and sincere connection with ONE PERSON at a time.

Myth #7 – Introverts are weird.

Introverts are often individualists. They don’t follow the crowd. They’d prefer to be valued for their novel ways of living. They think for themselves and because of that, they often challenge the norm. They don’t make most decisions based on what is popular or trendy.

Myth #8 – Introverts are aloof nerds.

Introverts are people who primarily look inward, paying close attention to their thoughts and emotions. It’s not that they are incapable of paying attention to what is going on around them, it’s just that their inner world is much more stimulating and rewarding to them.

Myth #9 – Introverts don’t know how to relax and have fun.

Introverts typically relax at home or in nature, not in busy public places. Introverts are not thrill seekers and adrenaline junkies. If there is too much talking and noise going on, they shut down. Their brains are too sensitive to the neurotransmitter called Dopamine. Introverts and Extroverts have different dominant neuro-pathways. Just look it up.

Myth #10 – Introverts can fix themselves and become Extroverts.

Introverts cannot “fix themselves” and deserve respect for their natural temperament and contributions to the human race. In fact, one study (Silverman, 1986) showed that the percentage of Introverts increases with IQ.

I think I can really hug the author of this article right now. Most times I feel so misunderstood. When I sink into one of my silent moments, most of my friends will jump to the conclusion:

She's just being emo/She's troubled but not willing to talk about it/She's just having a bad day.

And there are brief moments when I feel that there really is something wrong with me. Like I have some sort of a social syndrome that most of my friends don't really have.

After reading this it feels as if someone has cleared my name, providing justification to my silence, to my reluctance when it comes to meeting new people or going to parties.

Well, I always knew I was an introvert but I thought it was clearly a phase. But I think that last myth proved me wrong. I will always be this way. Destined to be socially awkward. Doomed to live through lonely nights.

i will not change for anybody unless that person is worth changing for. at least i will try.

FREE AT LAST!

but i'm not used to having to much free time. i think i say that at the beginning of every semester break so far. =p

i'm trying to learn how to make typographies with tumblr. nothing fancy. just simple stuff. so i better get started now.

tomorrow is my first paper for this semester's finals. to be honest, i really haven't been touching my books much. and when i do, nothing goes into my head. my passion for knowledge...is getting more and more diluted with each passing semester. i have got four more to go...and by the time I graduate, i don't think i'd have any interest left in anything educational. sighz.

so the only highlight of the past few days is the announcement of carry marks. and then my coursemates found out that one guy has been playing the role of teacher's pet, causing us to have our marks deducted. had a brief moment of verbal stabbing on facebook. it was fun. but then there is absolutely nothing we can do about it now.

two marks has been deducted for not attending ONE lecture on the final week. it wasn't fair to me, that day was only my second time skipping the class. what about people who have skipped lectures frequently through the semester? it is so unfair for me to get punished this way. 2 marks deducted for missing 3 hours of lecture throughout the semester. >=(

anyways, like i said, seeing my low carry marks is demoralizing. there is no motivation left for me now. sobs.